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My family is a nuclear one... consisting of my father- officer in irrigation department :a perfect gentleman,my mother- housewife: a typical family person, my younger sister-pursuing BTech: the most naughtiest person i know, and finally myself-running my own buisness of automobile accessories: a very reserved personality.

We are a middle class family and well settled in the heart of the city. The central point of attraction of my narration is my sister. Without her presence, my home turns to a mere house. Always running around, doing naughty stuffs and teasing me... was her main hobby.Where as i was totally opposite to her character. I like to spend time alone... hate public gatherings... naturally because i was a real reserved character. Though i hate time spent with my sister teasing each other,quarelling on silly matters and times filled with ego's... those were the little moments in my life when i had fun without even my knowledge...

She got out of college... and got placed in an MNC. She would come home on weekends and return on sunday nights.Every time she comes home, she hugs me with affection and talks about a lot of stuffs at her office... i just smile, for i didn't know the art of expressing love. During the evening walks... she hold on to my biceps with both her hands and walk close holding me tight,with never lasting lectures. I feel embarrassed as she holds me... and cared more about the public than her affection. It was the natural reaction from a person like me who is reserved to the core.

It was a sunday, and she was leaving to her workplace.I had to drop her at the railway station.As usual it was late when we left from home.Somehow i managed to reach the railway station on time and was relieved to watch the train still not left.

I hurried her to board the train... and even forgot to bid goodbye to her. I could watch her runnning towards her compartment. By the time i could warn her to watch for the train moving... it had started moving at a good pace. She reached out for the door and all i could see was she slipping and falling between the platform and the railway track.She fell in between the train wheels and disappeared in seconds.... i... i.. was speechless...mourning like a stray dog... sitting on my bike... all helpless. It felt like someone ripped open my chest and stabbed right through my heart twice or thrice. I forgot the whole world around me... i couldn't sense anything... i was crying out of the greatest pain i have ever had...

I could have hugged you tight and told you how much i loved you... how much i cared for you... the dreams i had for you... i could have expressed my entire love in a single hug... if at all.... you could return one more time ! I was helpless to snatch you back from the wheels of death... i was powerless to go back to the time and hold you back from the hands of death that awaited.

Its now 2 months since she has passed away. My home has literally become a graveyard. I have started thinking about life. Something very important struck me. I was reminded of a phrase i had read somewhere.

"Treat the people in your life right, as you won't meet them in your next life...... "

It was not only about my sister, it was about each individual in my life.... it might be my neighbour,friend,relative,school mate,college mate,colleague,internet friend anyone who has touched my life. I was deciding to apologize to whomever i have hurt, to smile and interact with whomever hurt me, to contact those who were not in touch because of silly ego's.

It doesn't take you much to tell a sorry and smile... but it does cost you a lifetime to live with a regret. Realize the importance of every individual in your life... for you'l never meet them once they are gone. Open your heart to every single person in your life than letting time stab you at the very same place.

I am sure, my sister would be smiling at me from somwhere in the blood stains on the railway track.... for i am a tansformed person now.

And i am pretty sure, someday or the other... i could meet your soul to tell you that "I have loved you like none other........ "